Saturday, December 22, 2012

I am a miss 20 years old


its been waayyyyyyy to long since I post an entry. At some point, I was thinking of shutting down this blog. haha..nobody even cares. But than I remembered one of the reasons why I made this blog, I need to keep remind my self who I was and who I became. how lame and nerdy I am, how clueless I was in a few ways. Turns out I still am. haha

well, there's been a lot going on. I'm in my second same in my degree. Still struggling in this life and preparing for my final exam. My friend is getting married, which I still cannot believe that. I turned 20 last month and my heart is broken, which I trying to hold that.

Twenty years of my life. And what have I achieved?
                                    - I have the best parents and family
                                    -and I have a lots of friends who always with me
 and I would never trade that for anything. I'm happy with my life. and I'm still trying figuring out who I want to be, achieving in my studies and also keep waiting for the best man! hahaha
and pictures tell all>>


Thursday, July 5, 2012

going to be 20

so nak highlight DATE release breaking dawn part 2.
attention to all my dearest friends .
aku berbesar hati sangat2 kalau ada yang nak blanja tengok.
its on MY birthday people!!
come on :D

Sunday, June 24, 2012


this is a video about my own generation.
check it out guys

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

kadang-kadang ade sesetengah orang yg memang tak reti bahasa kan. dont make you look like a desperate

Sunday, April 15, 2012

cheesy little thingy

hard to admit it
but i miss my old roomate

nurul hidayah zubairi

take note this
ehemm2drum roll

"fatin rindu dayah larh"

recently my granny are not very well enough
and my family had to go back to hometown to visit her
and of course i can't follow them back to trengganu
well im stuck in uia :0
anyway i called her yesterday
and her voice seems very week
sebak bile die cakap nanti aku cuti panjang nak duduk dengan aku
well hold on tokma
this sem is nearly done
(means final exam is coming huh)

talk about exam again makes me sick
we just finish our midsem and yet the final exam is coming
and yeah this sem is like hectic
every week ade quiz ok

p/s: i format my laptop and lost all my pictures and diaries. nice

Thursday, March 22, 2012


alhamdulillah im getting better
haaa lepas kene inject last week
dah nampak bkurang dah
ok la tuh

bile masuk uia gombak ni
aku macam kene suwei sikit
macam2 jadi dekat aku
i almost lost myself

keep being optimist right?
insy "setiap kesusahan ada kesenangan"
always bergantung harap pada Allah
he will help us

Friday, March 16, 2012

okeh this coming week will be like hectic
starting with 2nd quiz lab and ungs presentation on Monday
then there will be midterm exam for ungs on Wednesday
and paper circuit on Thursday
awesome huh

Friday, March 9, 2012



'Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: "When (will come) the help of Allah." Ah! Verily, the help of Allah is (always) near!'

surah al-baqarah ayat 214

its been a month
im tired of seeing the doctor every week
im tired of taking medicine every day
im tired being cried because its hurt
im tired of thinking how much i hate looking myself like this
but i know i have to get through this
i need to be redha
nisa selalu ckp 'sakit boleh hapuskan dosa2 kecil'
HE the one who made me sick, and HE also will cure me
i just have to wait and be strong

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

healing process

Its easy to ask someone to move on
But when it comes to myself
Moving on is damn difficult
Well im trying my best
Ambil mase la sikit
Forgetting things is easy
But force to forget
Its bloody hard

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

degree is not very fun ok

Welcome for new intake
Orang lain dh msuk degree lame
Aku bru je msuk

Mule2 mmg la excited nk msuk. Cuti 4 bulan kot. Gile bosan.
Bile dah msuk. Duduk 2 minggu kat uia nih. Mau mnangis hari2. Blum start kelas lagi nih.
Jauh la. Untungla org ade kereta ke moto ke. Basikal pon jadi. Huhu
Dengan foreigners nye belambak. Kalau lecturer pon susah nye nak adapt slang dorang.
Dengan aku pulak smpai2 sini ntah alergik ape ntah. Truk gile.
Sunyi btol uia ni. Dpt roomate sume umah dekat2. Untungla
Tinggal aku sorang2..serius lonely.
Depressed okeh duduk sini.


Monday, January 30, 2012

'what goes around comes around'
somehow that quote is true

and I have to be strong
what ever it is
I have to try to be strong

clear my mind
focus on important things

p/s to myself:
hold it up

Friday, January 27, 2012

tau tak bile kemalasan dah mengatasi segala-galanya
satu hapaa pon tak bergerak

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Monday, January 2, 2012

my hero

he is amazing guy i ever known
papa take care of his family very well
especially his children

one of the things that i really proud with him
is the way he manage our school things
so tommorow is the first day of school
and as usual
he will take a day off from his work
for what?
well of course
he will send dnish adam to school
but not just send him
he will definitely make sure my brother will enter the right class
have a place to sit
and papa will stay at the school until recess (well,that is what he said)

and I asked him
until when u ar going to accompny him
standard six?
he said, until university
and he continue answered me
luckily ezzah is studying in the same school with mama

he doesn't do that to my bro only
it happened to me too
from the first day of my stndard one
he would stay outside of my class until recess
not just that
papa would also make sure that everything was perfect
my books, my stationary, my school shoes
and everynight he would helped me with my homework
and if i was so sleepy
papa will finished it for me heee

and those things are happening to my sister and my baby brother
papa is an awesome men huh
my school memory was great because of the helped of papa
and i can't never pay him that much even with money

to papa
keep being a great dad will ya?
we love you so much